The Stunning Beauty of Duality

Just saw a post I did on LinkedIn one year ago, and oh, what a year it’s been fort all of us! Despite all of the upheaval and uncertainty, I am grateful for it all, and wouldn’t change a thing. I joke with close friends that this is the dark YEAR of the soul, forget night!

I could never have understood the duality of sorrow & joy, light & dark, terror & courage, grief & hope, fear & love, deception & truth, disillusionment and inspiration, and letting go in order to receive, without willingness to walk right into it and feel it all. You know the most important thing I learned this year? You won’t die from your feelings! You gotta feel them to heal them and to heal our families, our communities, our country, and our world.

The only way to bring in the light is to expose the darkness. When yo are willing to walk straight into the fire, you will arise victorious. We each have to do the work if we want to experience change, individually and collectively.  I promise, it’s worth it. 

Leaving a 23-year career & marriage, starting a new business, figuring out how to ruu a household without the support of my life partner, while submersing myself into learning about the very dark, evil crimes of child / human trafficking and becoming an advocate for truth, justice, and our God-given liberties during this Covid plandemic, well, let’s just say there has been a lot of hearache, a lot of loss, and a lot of tears. Yet, there have been co-existing feelings of peace, fulfillment, exhilartion, liberation, deep connection, and yes, even joy, a feeling that has escaped me in recent years, is rearing its head.

So many lessons, so much surrender, so much allowing.

So much compassion and forgiveness, toward myself and others.

Following your heart, trusting yourself, and your Source, and knowing that no matter how bad things get, you are NEVER alone, and goodness & opportunity always come from the most gut-wrenching challenges. 

Learning how to do what makes sense to you, even when it doesn’t add up to outsiders looking in, or even to the people who you thought know you and love you the most, are amongst the kindest and most liberating gifts you can give yourself.

“Your problem is that you think you’re not supposed to have problems”, As Tony Robbins says. Our destructive patterns, oour inner child wounds that keep showing up even though we are now adulting, the people who trigger us more than we’ve ever been triggered by in our entire life combined (you know who I’m talking about, LOL) – these are all avenues to our greatest growth and real transformations.  

I’ve  learned to stand in my truth, courage, and sovereignty and show up as me, without the mask (literally and figuratively), without censorship, without fear of judgement and abandonment, without feeling like I need to justify myself despite the instinct to do so, and yes, even without apology.

And I’m more committed than ever to help others do the same.